Can I just say
Together with this ‘what is there to live for’ weather, I am struggling today.
Tonight I have to go and meet Claire. This will be the first time the two of us have met this year, alone. I don’t really want to go, have no idea what to say and and am tempted to cancel. However my mind is ringing with 'do unto others.......' so I am going.
Do I bring the whole thing up? What is the point? But then if I don’t it will feel false and shallow. I just want to go home and crawl under my duvet.